“It’s better to explore life and make mistakes than to play it safe. Mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full life.” ~Sophia Loren
I found this quote recently and it about summed up all my current thoughts.
Recently I’ve been evaluating my life, what I have/haven’t done, what I want to do/don’t want to do and I’ve come to a revelation: Within my life there are very few if any experiences that I’ve said “Sarah, that was probably the wrong decision.” I’m not saying I’ve always made perfect choices, but I have always done, for the most part, the “right” thing. This is great right? Well after thinking about it I realized why I always made the “right, responsible” choice; it was because I didn’t want to disappoint anyone. I’m a people pleaser. To have someone look at with and think “What is she doing?” kills me. Being conscious of other people is great, but when you’ve taken other peoples opinions in too much, it’s a little disheartening. I’m not saying I want to go out and become a disappointment or make bad decisions, but I have been thinking about focusing more on what I want at that moment in time. Staying up all night, watching trashy shows, even though I have work early the next morning? Sounds great! Of course I know with “living in the moment” comes with future consequences but I think I’m finally ready to accept them.
I’m in the mood for some change! Yes… I said change. Normally a dirty little word that I dreaded in my vocabulary, now something I’m ready to accept, at least for a little bit. I’m ready to do things on impulse, give up a little responsibility, take a breath, and enjoy the life I’m living now. I know this is a little backwards. “Weren’t you supposed to have need back in high school?” Probably, but I was, again, too concerned with what people would think. I’m ready to give up that self-consciousness and do what I want! It’s such a liberating experience. Now I know I wont be able to give up all my responsible characteristics but I'm looking forward to this new adventuresome future!
Look forward to future stories!
Have any of you ever had similar thoughts? Do you always play it a little too safe? Or is it the opposite and you think I'm crazy for doing this? Let me know
Always remember: Nothing but love!
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