Why helllooooo there
Yeah yeah, I suck at keep this thing up... GET OVER IT! I'm here today just a small reflection of the past months have been. They've been great, mixed with a little frustration and a lot of fun. Getting to know new people and experiencing new things this past school year has been AMAZING. I never thought I'd be where I am now, but I love it. I'm experiencing this whole independence thing and I could get use to it.
Independence as in living on my own, "slightly" earning my own money, free of anyone holding my down or back. I've always enjoyed being myself slightly more than other people but this past year I've learned to live in it and appreicate it. All things that were holding me back are gone, the world is open for me. Whether its grad school on the Coast, studying abroad, or just doing whatever the hell I want, when I want, its all there for me and the only thing holding me back is myself. Letting go of that anxiety and concern for others, who could really not give two shits about me, makes me feel great. I've been telling my friends for a past couple months, BE SELFISH. This is our one and only time in life to spend money we dont have, do the things we will regret just because we want to them, and not be concerned about anyone else. (I understand all previous statements can be taken to the extreme, and yes of course I care for my family and friends.)
Realizing I have no boundaries has opened so many doors for me. The world of student affairs, people at Elmhurst, and job opportunities. While yes of course this sounds all well and good, I'm not saying my life is 100% where I want it to be. There are times when I do make those bad decisions and regret them. Times where I'm so stressed my head will explode. I get mad, angry, upset more often than I'd like to admit, but I'm finally living a genuine life and it feels so damn good.
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